There are times when I feel I need to have new perspectives in life. Right now, I feel like a crap. Probably this is what they call it the quarter life crisis? I'm just doing the things I'm doing everyday to keep myself busy but the problem is, I'm trying to run away from reality. I'm deceiving myself. I do all the things to keep me busy so that it could stop me from thinking what I really need or want. I'm confused.
Sigh, I just don't know what I want anymore, really. Probably is the way I look that leads people into myths and misconceptions about me. But the fact is, I'm nothing. I have nothing. And I'm not as big as people churn me out to be. I just want to be accepted me to be me. To find a special belonging somewhere. Right now, I dont have any. I feel tired running around in circles. I'm chasing my own tail.
Is there a happy ending to everything? I wish there was...
Tatty Teddy posted at 5.7.09 |